Loads of people have been asking me, "So whaddaya want to do after uni?" The thing is I've been thinking about it and I realised that i have no clue. I honestly have no clue. and this is absolutely frightening, being aimless that is. I have always been a person who has a goal and slowly I work towards my goal, be it a long term one or short term goal.

I guess the excessive break I've been enjoying is rotting my brain away and i hate it! I know what you people will tell me to do, especially HG, go find a job. I don't think a job will help me refocus and find that elusive "what i want to do in life" epiphany. In fact i think the only way for my brain to reboot is to go back to school. And i know how ridiculous my next statement is gonna sound but i actually miss going to school. I mean the whole process of wearing a uniform (although i hated wearing it), complaining about schoolwork and rushing through assignments etc. It must be the living on a day by day basis that irks me. It was fun at first, no doubt about that. the new found freedom of not having to wake up in the wee hours of the morning and to stress about an upcoming test or exam etc. but now its getting plain ol' tiresome. i do realise how ungrateful and silly i sound. missing school? i never thought the day would come. who'd knew?

Plus I need to start thinking about my near future. like seriously think. Hmm, why did i bring up this matter? i followed my mom to Nabil's parent meeting session earlier on (I'm gonna digress for a while) I'm quite proud of the improvement he has made from CA (since i practically had to be his personal tutor for every subject besides Malay). Improved English by abt 15-20 marks and maths he was 3rd in class.*beams* Anyhoo while I was there the teachers, who found out that i was partially responsible for Nabil's marked improvement (ahem), asked me what i wanted to do. I told her that i didn't know but i am positive that i did not want to be a teacher. that got a few laughs from them. She told me that her daughter said the exact same thing. If this is case, the gov has a major issue to on their plate. Hmm we all know then that if locals do not want to be teachers, we have to resort to hiring foreigners. This would then spark off the whole local vs foreign war that has been going on since forever. but can we blame them for hiring foreigners when we are not up to the challenge? gosh i realise how much i digressed. ugh Miss su would be so disappointed. lol. hahahaha.

So now I'm wondering what I'll do to fritter my remaining 2 months before starting school. I have enjoyed the long break but i have to seriously find something constructive to do. I was thinking maybe dressmaking. Since it will be super cool learning how to make clothes. Hmm. i really do need to stimulate my neurons or they'll lose all the connections they've made over time. Till next post, au revoir!

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